A writer's Heart

I've been living in a dream, a nightmare maybe. It has been a while since I can not wake up. How can this be, you might ask.   Well, every morning seems like I wake up. It does indeed. I open my eyes, check the time on my mobile, turn on the WiFi, check messages and there is usually nothing; that's okay though. I am not in a relationship, nor have family that usually contact me; I have a few acquaintances but we do not usually communicate.  So after that morning routine, I usually get distracted in this world for a while and soon I have breakfast and a day goes by. Everybody from my direct family exist here, even two small kids, whose I am their aunt; yet someone is missing. I search and search but I can't find him; I don't know where he is hiding. How confusing! every day it is the same. In this place no one tells me anything; honestly why do they keep the answers I need. Why is he missing? Why do they not mention him? Is he none existent in this world? Or have they al...

People tend to say that one day you will meet a person who will love you no matter the mess you are or once were. How true is this? Or actually does something like this actually is meant to happen? Many days are dark, so dark that you can't even see the light people talk about. They all talk about happiness and so many colorful things, while all you can reach to see is from dark to grey.

On March 17, something happened, it isn't that we didn't know it was going to occur sooner or later. That calm Tuesday, it did, I can't explain how hard things have been after 9:58 p.m. on that night. It has been a rollercoaster of emotions and each day you can feel there is someone missing. It's been a few days but it hasn't become easier to handle. Some may seem as if they have so easily moved on with life, like if nothing ever happened. All I can say, someone is missing, and that empty space can't be filled. There are a lot of flashbacks each day and it's every morning a new day, then night; time goes by yet you won't come back.

I only give up on everything that disturbs my inner peace.

How interesting are secrets? Exciting? Intriguing? Arousing? Shameful? Fun? Sad? Scary? It would depend on what you keep hidden. A man or woman who has a hidden relationship may say it can be all of the above or use a variety of different words. Their point of view is what makes the secret worthy or not. A kid would say its scary or fun, up to what they are hiding from their parents, siblings or friends. A teenager may find it exciting, to have secrets, they might feel they own the world. A parent may have a whole different perspective of secrets. A lawyer may say its to win a case; a doctor may think the patient is to know it all; a teacher may believe secrets have consequences and so on. Each person may tell you its okay to have secrets or that it wrong. One thing I assure, we all have something hidden; something we may never tell. It may be something we want for ourselves or something bad. Some people wise or not may say that we only hide what is a wrong doing.  Something societ...